Community is everything. I’ve always known that but have
learned to appreciate it even more since being void of true community for
almost three years in New York City, where people are basically laying on top
of each other. It seems almost daily now that I run into at least one person
who gives me the gift of their joy and anticipation for our baby. It fuels me
and reminds me how sacred and special this journey of ours is. I anticipated
feeling excited, but right now it feels like more than that. I somehow feel
like I won the lottery. Is that insane? I will always wish that I could have
carried this pregnancy, but I know there is something so beautiful and perfect
about this life and the way it’s being created.
And now we wait. 8 days from now Jessi (who I’ll introduce
to you soon) will be getting the IVF, and a few weeks from then we will know if
we have a pregnancy. The thought of it is almost to much to handle, I could
explode inside. I day dream of all the special moments, sharing the news with
our friends and family, the look on their faces, announcing it to the
world…gender reveals and baby showers….sigh…..
The really crazy part is I don’t feel antsy or rushed for
any part of this, which is sooo not my vibe normally. I thought I would be
consumed with the days and hours in between me and transfer day and then later,
the pregnancy test…but I don’t. I feel such a peace and an ease about the timing
and flow of what is unraveling. I’m just kicking my feet up now and watching
God turn the pages of our story, savoring every word, cause by now, I know how
fast things go.
Thank you for being in my life <3
